A couple nights ago Zoe kept us up till almost five in the morning. She cried and cried and cried. Paul and I both were drained and were slightly annoyed with each other by the time she finally fell asleep -- after Paul had enough and put her in her crib where she immediately passed out from pure exhaustion.
Yesterday morning I was determined to this was not going to happen again. So I kept Zoe up as much as I could.. which she hated. She was absolutely crazy that day. Some moments she would smile and play with her toys, the next she would throw her toys down and scream and cry like someone was torturing her. I didn't touch her, don't worry.
I was having such a rough time! I couldn't do anything to make my daughter happy. So I just let her lay on her blanket and cry.. and scream. I'm thinking Zoe is testing us to see what she can get away with. Which is why it was such a screaming fit yesterday.
She did better last night, but she still has a way to go before we're all sleeping well again! She only had one nap today and is doing well so far.. I'm thinking tonight we'll all get much needed rest.
It's funny, though, because last night I put on a Veggie Tales movie for Zoe and I to watch until Paul came home from work. It was Sumo of the Opera, which talks about perseverance! I thought it was fitting for me more than Zoe to watch for a gentle reminder.
I knew that there would be moments when being a mother would be hard. Yesterday was my hardest day so far. I pray that God will give me strength to do what is right for my children, the patience, and perseverance. A year from now, or even 6 months from now, I may have a harder day that will blow this one out of the water. I just need to take one day at a time.